Feeling

Tree. Forest. Green. Picnic. Vacation
"I never felt this way. I never felt something like this to someone, to something."

Sometimes, things don't work out the way you wanted them to.
Escape. Run away. Death. Suicide ---- could be the best thing to do for some people in this situation. But i promised, i'm not gonna do those things ---- never.
I promised that when bitter, sad or bad things happened, I'll never do some stupid things like i used to do years ago.

It'll be nice to dissapear for a while, for a week, a month, 3 months, 6 months or even years.
I can't blame anyone . Just me. It's all about me, myself.
A vacation would be perfect, maybe forest and mountain would be a right choice at this time.
I always love trees, rock and forest. There's something beautiful about it.
Maybe i need some recess : alone. Some time alone to think about things ; future, past and present.
I cant blame my parents about this. I also can't blame you (you know who you are).
It's hard to leave you but it's also hard to handle this.

See you when I see you,
Pheby

P.S : sorry to write this random shitness personal problem.